I’ve always thought it’s better to talk about your feelings than to keep them bottled up inside. In fact it’s something I have consistently preached to my friends. Ironically, this is something that I struggle to do. Overtime I have found it more and more difficult translating my feelings. I used to write poetry but now that I’m in university and have no time, I’ve decided to try blogging about it.
I’ve recently gone through what some call an emotional stressor. I’ve said goodbye to a person that has been an active part of my life for a very long time. Everyday I think of them, and can’t help but wonder if they are thinking of me too. I wish I knew if it was as hard for them as it is for me. This distance was and is needed for many reasons, yet when you miss a person all logic seems to go right out the window. I stare at my phone hoping their name will pop up even though I know I may never hear from them again. Knowing that my life is going to continue without them being an intimate part scares me beyond belief.
It’s hard to admit to yourself that a person you once thought would be with you forever is better off without you. That you two once fulfilled a crucial role within each others lives but now that part reads “failure to thrive”. I held on so long because it’s hard to admit to yourself that it’s not working anymore. You feel broken, misplaced, confused, and most importantly lost. I’ve always been a girl with a plan, and now I find myself grasping for straws.
I hope this person comes across this post one day. i know they probably won’t and that is okay too… but I really need them to know that i do miss them and I hope everything is going great and I hope we will be able to talk soon…